


I'm not sure what's wrong with me, (if anything). But I am having difficulty with the idea of the kids getting older.
I was looking at pictures from Christmas 07. As you can see from the photos, Jon and I had difficulty getting all three to look at the camera at once.
I think we took about 100 pictures that night and you can see what we had to work with.
Alex was the only one to cooperate every time. Raven was too distracted with Lenore and tried to "help" by holding her sister's head in place. Lenore was just Lenore.
Today, all three will cooperate. Back then, I couldn't wait for the day when we could actually take a decent photo (dare I say) the first time.
Now that we can, I'm sad. Alex asked me the other day what am I going to do when he goes off to college. I told him I will be happy for him and it will be a blast, but can we please just enjoy 5th grade?
He laughed. I laughed on the outside.
Yesterday, Raven asked me if I knew I was going to marry Jon the minute I met him. What the hell? She's only in 4th grade. We had a great talk and she really enjoyed the stories about Jon and I when we were 19.
She laughed and smiled. I did so on the outside.
This morning, Lenore counted off on her little fingers the days until she turns 5. Only three days away. She's skipping around the house singing "The 5 Song".
Not even going to tap into that feeling right now. :)
I guess every parent goes through this. "My kiddos are growing up and I'm sad", posts are not groundbreaking or anything like that. But it has affected the way I will move forward with my doll business.
It's one of the reasons Jon and I have decided to write a "How-To"/pattern book for my dolls. Sure it's plenty of work right now, but hopefully it will free up some precious time reserved for my little ones.
Please don't misrepresent what I'm saying. I LOVE sewing my creations and am extremely grateful for the work on custom orders. Those custom orders are crucial to us.
But like so many other moms/dads out there I am trying to strike a healthy balance between work and family. Sometimes I fail at this but it doesn't stop me from trying again.
So here's to all you wonderful parents out there in cyberspace who are going through the same thing. God bless you, and if you ever want to vent about the kids growing too fast, drop me a line and we can get through it together.